the last season of the bachelorette....?

yes, i have been totally sucked into the last season of the bachelorette. largely because she's brunette, smart, professional, and -- at least as it appears on tv -- real.

but i'm also wondering...is this the last season of MY bachelorette show? tomorrow it will be three months with M. and things are going really well. this is definitely an experience unlike any i've ever had before. it started differently, has progressed differently, and feels like it is on a different trajectory than any relationship i've ever been in. i feel hopeful, but of course it is still early so who knows what the future holds.

but it's exciting for sure. i've experienced some intense feelings of my identity shifting which has been strangely painful even though it is welcomed. i've often consulted one of my favorite resources, the book "if the buddha dated" to help me understand the emotions i've been experiencing and that's been helpful.

we shall see...i'm thankful for all the support i've had so far from friends and family and remain optimistic!

~md