"my life is just an image of a rollercoaster anyway"

that quote comes from one of my favorite groups of all time, everything but the girl.

this whole dating thing is very much like a rollercoaster. yesterday ended up being a bit of a rollercoaster too -- so much for the super-optimistic v-day post! but the good thing about a rollercoaster is that you are excited and feeling good, and then you hit the low point -- yikes! but then click, click, click, you make your way back up again.

kind of like dating, especially the blind/internet variety. there is all this anticipation and excitement. then you meet the person and typically you feel a little let down, as it is hard for any mortal human to live up to the idealistic notions we often create in our heads. (nevermind those people who can't live up to their own pictures -- that's another story altogether!) i have had the experience where the person far exceeded my expectations but after a while that crashed and burned, so who the hell knows. right now there is someone on my mind that i will soon meet and i'm terrified that i won't feel that click, that spark. we have so much in common and our paths will continue to cross regardless, but i feel like i'm in the front of the car on the coaster, taking a deep breath before the exciting but very scary drop. i know i will make my way back up no matter what, but when?

stay tuned.

and as if on cue, my favorite dj on my favorite radio show (just figured out how to do those cool embedded links!) is playing "protection" by massive attack -- not an ebtg song, but sung by their lead singer, so close enough. great song. goodnight.